Whats with the world?

I'm not an english speaker. My english is imperfect. I'm not a psychologist. I don't have a liscence. I'm not compassionate. I'm not fair. I'm not gay. The thought of homosexual sex is the most disgusting thing that I have ever unwillingly thought of. I'm not me. I'm someone. I'm not wonderful. I'm not smart. I'm not great. I'm human. I am... I don't know. I know what I am not... I'm not who people say I am. I don't even understand humanity. I would like to believe you guys are right, but you're wrong. I am pitiful, or I see myself that way. What little self respect I have, I give to others... I'm confused, that's all I know I am.