After a year... what do I now know?

I've been revisiting my old friendster account/blog again... for reminiscing's sake... and I found Kat's old message... I felt so guilty... in so many ways...

hola miguel.. :) this was a note i was supposed to
leave on your blog, but apparently, i do not know
how to do that. haha :) it's been a long time since
we last talked.. last time i saw you, you just sat
and ran from our expsyla class... wasn't even able
to say goodbye.. (well, i didn't know you were
transferring till i asked where you were) anyway, i
won't hold it against you. :) you have quite a few
more weeks to enjoy your freedom (while we begin
being roasted in hell by our chem prof) before
classes in the other side of the world begins :) i
trully wish you the best.. i know this has been your
long term dream.. and now it is very close to
becoming a reality :) keep posting bout your soon
to be life in the blue world. i enjoy your rants(?), i
read them when i run out of things to do on the
net. hehehe :) and remember, AMDG, Ad Majorem
Dei Gloriam :) ALWAYS for the greater glory of
God. :) i know you will do well in Ateneo. just don't
forget to look back once in a while :) we will miss
you. :) take care over there (i mean, in riding the
LRT). till then :) adios miguel.. yo te echo de
menos..
-gato

i'm sorry everyone for being such a jerk about the whole thing... especially to kat >.< ...seriously this time... i was too brash and offensive about a choice, which i now realize i, personally had made. it was never a fault, just another very memorable experience... i do look back... i do remember... it does still hurt... it doesnt matter anymore what was past anyway, right? i'll be seeing you guys in the future. (preferrably july 26.)

Backtracking to: The Ateneo Cheer Rally 07'

Backtracking to the Ateneo Cheer Rally last Friday... all pics still blatantly stolen from Joel Jayme... (pacopy Joel ha :p)

there was a tree... and the TR people...

there was perspiration, and odd faces...

there was dancing, from the actual athletes...

there was Chris Tiu (tama ba spelling?)...

there was kuya nonoy... (go kuya nonoy!)

there was a Song for Mary :)

there was that rivermaya guy...

there were happy faces...

there were friends in a can...(PATROL pare, PATROL!!!)

there was eating...

galing website yang last pic... lalang...

Mid Class World

Doors open

then blaring drums of jubilation

as the bell rings in constancy

bears that dance

an ecstatic population

girls thrown into the air

they fall to earth, i do not care

for i can see their underwear

paper lanterns on strings

flaglets waving in the air

but again i do not care

I'm a Psych Major! Yipee!

I'm just happy to be a psych major.... it just hit me... I'm a psych major! My books are hella thick and full of technical crap... and... im satisfied! I love it!

Music Stuff

Got this from Avila.... Redoing it again. Go to your music player of choice and put it all on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud, and after each one press play. Use the song title as the answer to the question. What do you think of me? Anyone Anyone by Dashboard (Its such a human song) Will I have a happy life? 4 AM by Kaskade ('someday I know there's a way') What do my friends really think of me? Quiet Poetic by Urbandub (pwede rin...)Do people secretly lust after me? Switchfoot- Tokimeki no Doukasen from the Fushigi Yuugi Soundtrack (WTF!?) How can I make myself happy? I Feel Like by Kaskade ('This time love can be real?') What should I do with my life? Rise and Fall by Craig David ft. Sting (thats so apocalyptic....) Why must life be so full of pain? Clothes Off by Gym Class Heroes (promiscuity?) How can I maximize my pleasure during sex? Running Out of Days by 3 Doors Down (I should hurry up?) Will I ever have children? Rape Me by Nirvana (Desperado e....) Will I die happy? Superman Kryptonite by 3 Doors Down (I’ll die EMO!) Can you give me some advice? Never Again by Kelly Clarkson (I should forget She Who Musn't Be Named? ) What do you think happiness is? Shooting Star by The Teeth (WTF?) What's my favourite fetish? Vindicated by Dashboard Confessional (Chris Carraba?)

My Heroes Character is Micah Sanders

Your Score: Micah Sanders

You scored 62 Idealism, 25 Nonconformity, 41 Nerdiness

Can we play Scrabble tonight?
Congratulations, you're Micah Sanders! You're good-natured, intelligent, perceptive, and naturally inclined toward technology. You're also quite innocent and loving. You've got a fondness for computers and Scrabble.

Your best quality: You're extremely perceptive
Your worst quality: You can be a little demanding at times

Link: The Heroes Personality Test written by freedomdegrees on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

1ST TERM... The Perfect Sched

THEORETICAL OUTPUT FOR THE MOST PACTICABLE 1ST TERM SCHEDULE

PE 108

C(MEN)

LAWN TENNIS

2

M-W 0900-1000

TENNIS CRT

PSY 102.1 B FUNDAMENTAL STATISTICS: LECTURE 3 M-W-F 0930-1030 SS-284

PSY 102.2

B

FUNDAMENTAL STATISTICS: LABORATORY

2

TH 1330-1730

SS-284

PSY 105.1

B

EXPERIMENTAL PSYCHOLOGY: LECTURE

3

M-W-F 1030-1130

F-117

PSY 105.2

B

EXPERIMENTAL PSYCHOLOGY: LABORATORY

2

M 1230-1630

SS-113

PSY 106

A

PHYSIOLOGICAL PSYCHOLOGY

3

T-TH 1200-1330

BEL-308

PH 101

C

PHILOSOPHY OF THE HUMAN PERSON I

3

T-TH 1030-1200

SEC-B201A

FLC 1SP

C

BASIC SPANISH 1 LANGUAGE AND CULTURE

3

M-W-F 1130-1230

K-304

On a Past Year.

Okay. It's been a year. Exactly a year and seven days ago, my knees buckled, and I slid to the ground, my mouth groping air. Exactly two year and two days ago, I met 22 people who changed my life forever.

I REALLY WITH ALL MY HEART MISS YOU GUYS. I like you more than the other people. (sorry other people :p)

Err...

Schools have better platforms than politicians.

Chemistry is The Central Science 3

You need a bit of prior chemistry know how to get this...

Chemistry is The Central Science 3:

2Fe³⁺ + 3S²⁺ => FeS₃

Even if I have to be twice as strong, and give all I have, so you can just take all you can from me to satisfy your voracious ego... It doesn't matter. In the end, we'll be together.

Names From Thea

1. YOUR REAL NAME?
~ Michael Joseph Porter Cabauatan

2.YOUR GANGSTA NAME:
(first three letters of your name,
plus izzle)
~ micizzle (foshizzle manizzle)

3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav color
and fav animal)
~ Blue Cat (parang Power Rangers name nman to e...).

4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle
name, and current street name)
~ Porter Mercedes (syet papa, syet).

5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3
letters of your last name, first 2
letters of your first name, first 3
letters of mom's maiden name
~ Cabmipor (pwede...)

6. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd favorite
color, favorite drink)
~ black vokda (okay...)
7. IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter
of your first name, 3rd letter of your
last name, any letter of your middle
name, 2nd letter of your moms maiden
name, 3rd letter of you dads middle
name, 1st letter of a siblings first
name, last letter of your moms middle
name)
~ Iboor (parang monkey or something)
8. WITNESS PROTECTION NAME:
(mother/father middle name)
~ wala akong tatay e..

9. GOTH NAME: (3rd favorite color, and
the name of one your pets)
~ Red Medea (RoK on.)
10. SCIENTIFIC NAME (for the genus:
nickname then add licious, for the
species: add canabis, be sure to
capitalize first letter of genus name)
-GENUS: Miclicious
SPECIES: miccanabis
11. ANIME NAME (last 2 letters of
last name plus harakiri)
~ Anharakiri. wow... medj racist naman dba....

12. NAME AT NIGHT (first 2 letters of
middle name then add shalala)
~ poshalala (syet papa, syet)


13. UNDERGROUND NAME (ka then
nickname plus ing)
~ ka micing. (sounds like a cooking process)

14. TYPHOON NAME (last 3 letters of
mother's middle name then yang)
~ teryang (oye!!!!).

15. DINOSAUR NAME (fav fruit
plus "asaur")
~ grapeasaur wek. parang fruit juice

Mga Kakilakilabot na Tagpuan sa Buhay ni Teresa Nimpomanya! Reyna ng Libertad! Ang Unang Kabanata

Ang Unang Kabanata: Bangkangsaging

Ang unang araw ng bentahan ng gulay sa pamilihang bayan ng Libertad ay nagsimula bago man sumikat ang araw. Mga taong nagmimilingmiling sa palengke ay naguunahan sa mga sariwang gulay na dala ni THERESA NIMPOMANYA! ang REYNA ng LIBERTAD! At nasaan nga ba ang ating bida? Ayun sa may kangkungan! Nagbebenta! Aba, kaysipag nga naman ni Teresa! Kalahati ng araw ay kanyang ibinibigay sa pag-alaga ng kanyang mga pamilihan ng gulay. Sinisigurado niya na ang sangkatauhan ng Libertad ay may mura at sariwang gulay na mabibili! Tanghalian na, at paalis na ang reyna sa pamilihang bayan. Sakay ang Luntiang Kareton na pinahiram sa kanya ng kaibigang si Reyna Neneng ng Munting Lupa, paparada siya sa kanyang kaharian, nagbibigay ligaya sa mga nakakakita sa kanya. Kay saya nga naman ng mga tao ng Libertad! Parang tila walang gabi habang reyna si Teresa! "Ang parada ng reyna! Mapaparito ngayong araw!" Maligalig na sigaw ng mga mamamayan ng Libertad sa tabi ng ilog kama. "Paparating na siya! kumanta tayo ng pabuya sa kagandahan niya!" Dumating na ang minamahal na reyna! pakendengkendeng pa sa taas ng Luntiang Kareton! "Magandang araw mga tao ng Libertad sa tabi ng ilog kama! Paano na kayo? Nakabili ba kayo ng talong at kamatis?" Tanong ng mahal na reyna. "Opo reynang mahal!" Sagot ng mga tao. Tumuloy ang kanyang parada sa tabi ng ilog kama ng biglang mayroon siyang nakita! May tao sa ilog kama! Na may... bangkangsaging! "Kay LAKI ng bangkangsaging niya!" sigaw ng reyna. "Sino kaya siya, mayari ng bangkangsaging!" Bumaba sa Luntiang Kareton ang reyna. "Oh, sailor!" agaw atensyon na sinigaw ni reyna Teresa sa namamangka. "Ilapit mo dito ang bangkangsaging mong kalaki-laki!" Lumapit ang namamangka. "Ano ang kailangan mo sa akin, kung sino ka man?" Sabi ng namamangka. "Ako si reyna Teresa Nimpomanya ng Libertad! Ikaw, sino ka?" Sagot ni Teresa. "Ako si Mardong Manggagawa, at ito ang aking bangkangsaging!" Sabi ng namamangka. "Aba! kay laki naman talaga ng bangka! at kay ganda ng kulay! kay sarap lamunin!" Sabi nig reyna. "Huwag naman," sabi ni Mardo, may pinot sa mukha. "Ito lamang, at ang aking katawan ang tangi kong pagmamayari!" "Siya, siya." sabi ni Teresa. "Pwede bang sakyan ang saging na yan?" "Oo, reyna" sagot ni Mardong Manggagawa. "Kahit pataas, o pababa, o pahalang. Kahit saan. Kahit hindi siya basa ay pwede sakyan! Kahit walang tubig, o kahit umuulan! Kahit may alimango, pwede sakyan!" "Pwede ko ngayo'y sakyan?" Tanong ni Teresa. "Kung gugustuhin reyna, ay maaari! gusto mong sakyan sa Kama, o kahit sa daanan, pwede sakyan!" Sagot ni Mardong. "Sige, dito na." Sabi ng reyna, at kanyang sinakyan ang bangkangsaging ni Mardong Manggagawa.

Patience

Patience, what is it but a virtue begotten from the suffering of unending pains. It is at the point where you find that there is no more hope to hold on to that Patience settles in.

Mga Kakilakilabot na Tagpuan sa Buhay ni Thea Nimpomanya! Reyna ng Libertad! Ang Introduksyon

Mga Karakter:

Thea Nimpomanya- Ang ating bida! Reyna ng Libertad, nasa pagmamayari niya ang tatlong ka-apat ng mga sanglaan, at kalahati ng gulayan sa Libertad!

Mardong Manggagawa- Isang mababang manggagawa, siya ay napamahal sa puso ng ating bida, kahit ang tangi niyang mga pagmamayari ay ang kanyang katawan, at isang malaking bangkangsaging.

Sarong Saragnayan- Ang Raja ng Maynila. Minamahal niya ang ating bida, pero kahit anong suyo ang gawin, ay bumabalik-balik parin ang ating bida sa bangkangsaging ni Mardong.

Bochoy- Tagapayo ni Thea Nimpomanya

Jojoy- Babaylan ng Dapithapon

Neneng- Reyna ng Munting Lupa. Mayari ng Luntiang Kareton.

Phaganda Maykaya- Reyna ng Buendia! Pinakamalapit na kaibigan ng bida.

Mga Kakilakilabot na Tagpuan sa Buhay ni Thea Nimpomanya! Reyna ng Libertad!

Mumbaki! (dem Ifugaos are whacked!)

Watched the award winning film "Mumbaki" which is basically how dem Ifugaos are whacked! No wonder there's so much violence up north.

Compana Buddy

I forgot to post something last April 22nd... I'd like to share a quote I heard a while ago. "No matter how big you get, it still hurts to lose a pet." I miss you compana buddy... no one else does come close to you.

mishu arche...

Chemistry is the Central Science (2)

Ideal Volume = Real (observed) volume - Correction Term

She would have been perfect... if she had only loved me back.

Chemistry is the Central Science

More Attraction = Less Force of Collisions & Less Frequency of Collisions = Less Pressure

I like you, so I don't wanna argue & we don't really have to. I feel good when I'm near you.

Sagutan namin ni Thea

Fill this out about me (then send it back to me) *BUT FIRST* Send a Blank Copy To All Of Your Friends (So They Can Fill It Out About You! Got It?? BE HONEST Ü My name: Ma. Teresa Espiritu Aque Where did we meet?: DLSU How long have you known me?: 2 years na!!! How well do you know me (a lot, not so much, nothing)?: too much... >.< Do I smoke?: recently only, but yes. Whats my favourite colour?: ORANGE When you first saw me what was your first impression? sellout santugon b*tch My age?: 18 :D My birthday?: June 16 Hair Color?: Black-Brown Color of eyes?: Brown-Black Have you ever been jealous of me? Naaah. Never wanted to be you. Whats one of my fav things to do indoors?: *wink**wink**nudge**nudge* Do you remember the first things I said to you when we first met? Hi, I'm Thea? Whats my fav type of music?: girl songs... Whats one of my fav things to do outdoors?: *wink**wink**nudge**nudge* hndi... shopping. Am I shy or outgoing?: outgoing! GRABE! MASYADO!!! SARCASTIC?: Oo. Medjo. Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules?: Rebel yan! Would you consider me a friend?: Probably... :D Would you call me preppy, slutty, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, snobby, or something else?: glam, slutty, perky, bitchy!! (you love that) Have you ever seen me cry?: yup yup If there were one good nickname for me, what would it be? Thea! Are my parents still together?: Yes, of course! If not, sinong maninigaw sayo? If I had broccoli stuck on my teeth, would you tell me? Spinach... no... Broccoli, yes! AM I... Quiet or loud? Loud Short or Tall: Tall Weird or original: Original Smart or stupid? Smart! Boring or Fun? Fun! DO YOU THINK I'M... (Yes or NO Answers. If you wanna say something extra, you may.) A psycho? Yes. Athlethic? No. A nerd? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH A slut? BWAHARHARHARHAHARHARBWAHAR!!!! A *astard? bitch. 2-faced? malaki lang mukha, pero hndi 2 faced :D Obnoxious? somethimes. Immature? mos-sometimes :D Mature? kulit... JUST A FEW MORE QUESTIONS What do you think Ill be when I grow up? a teacher. When is my birthday? June 16 nga kulit. Who is my best friend? si Ralp What song (if any) reminds you of me? Baby Got Back Do I remind you of any characters on TV? Raven If you could rename me, what would my name be? Maria Teresa Markova Adelada Immaculada Espiritu Aque :D What word do I say all the time? Ano ba!! No kaya!!! Is there anything youd like to say to me? The distinction between Piaget's theory vis-a-vis Freuds, is that children grow through social interaction rather than physical fixation.

Fill this out about me (then send it back to me)*BUT FIRST* Send a Blank Copy To All Of YourFriends (So They Can Fill It Out About You! GotIt?? BE HONEST Ü My name:Thea Aque Where did we meet?:Block LR45! animo lasalle! How long have you known me?:two years. :) How well do you know me (a lot, not so much,nothing)?:a lot. =P Do I smoke?:hell no. Whats my favourite colour?:green. ahaha. green blood mehn. When you first saw me what was your firstimpression?i thought you were such a smart-ass. hahaha. you were the only one AWAKE during our zoology class. then you fought with us about the santugon shirts. My age?:19 dearie My birthday?:November 16 Hair Color?:black. Color of eyes?:brownish black. Have you ever been jealous of me?with your grammar skills. yeah. haha. :)) Whats one of my fav things to do indoors?:manlait. ahaha! :)) Do you remember the first things I said to youwhen we first met?"hey, i'm mickey." Whats my fav type of music?:paris hilton songs. hahaha JOKE. Whats one of my fav things to do outdoors?:spend time with the orgees. haha. =P help other people. Am I shy or outgoing?:a little bit of both. SARCASTIC?:YES. Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules?:a little bit of both. haha. Would you consider me a friend?:of course. BULBY! Would you call me preppy, slutty, average,sporty, punk, hippie, glam, snobby, or somethingelse?:snobby! Have you ever seen me cry?:yeah. when uhh.. your cat died. If there were one good nickname for me, whatwould it be?BULBY! Are my parents still together?:nope. If I had broccoli stuck on my teeth, would youtell me?of course. AM I... Quiet or loud?quiet. but when it comes to toyo, loud. haha. Short or Tall:tall Weird or original:original Smart or stupid?smart Boring or Fun?funDO YOU THINK I'M... (Yes or NO Answers. If youwanna say something extra, you may.) A psycho?yeah. hahaha. everyone is. Athlethic?not really.. :) A nerd?no. A slut?are you thea? haha. :)) hell no. A *astard?nope. 2-faced?nope. Obnoxious?not really. Immature?hell no. Mature?hell yes. MALAMANG. JUST A FEW MORE QUESTIONS What do you think Ill be when I grow up?you'll be my psychiatrist. haha. When is my birthday?nov. 16 nga kulet! Who is my best friend?iris! What song (if any) reminds you of me?hhmm. nothing in this world. haha. :)) Do I remind you of any characters on TV?hmm. wala e. di gumagana utak ko ngaun If you could rename me, what would my name be?BULBY. joke. haha. mic's just fine. What word do I say all the time?nympho. well that's what you always say to me. Is there anything youd like to say to me?i miss youuuu! and im so thankful to have you in my life bulby!

MALI SI THEA SA BDAY KOH!!!!! im hurt :(

Philippine stuff...

GDP (PPP) 2005 estimate

- Total $451 billion (25th)

- Per capita $4,923 (112nd)

GDP (nominal) 2005 estimate

- Total $98,731 billion (51st)

- Per capita $1,168 (120th)

HDI (2006) 0.763 (medium) (84th) [Human Development Index, indicator of General Welfare]

We're actually the 11th most livable (according to general welfare) in Asia... and we're still complaining. Sabagay... check the inequality of allocation of resources...

one other thing... there are approx. 41,000 people per square mile in the city of Manila... I don't see that many people! Thats because our district is the least populated... 19,000 per square mile. I STILL dont see THAT MANY people.

Professoring...

God! Summer classes have begun, and already I feel like quitting the whole thing altogether.

3 new classes

3 new professors

one helluva field day everyday.

Ec102- Introduction to Economics, Agrarian Reform, and Taxation.

Mr. Edsel Tupaz

M-F 730-900 CTC203

Oh my GOD! People, search Edsel Tupaz on Yahoo or whatever search engine you prefer, and you will see why I am ECSTATIC to have this person as my professor. He's about 30-ish, and my initial reaction to him was, "Thea & Fi would loove this guy." It seems that his appearance mirrors his academic excellence as well... check him out. He corrects himself a lot though... funny actually. He also uses the oddest examples imaginable, while teaching us modified fun concepts, like how New Zealand trades sheep for microchips, and how if we are to lessen the number of spas in the Philippines, and force all the therapists and others to work in nata de coco factories, the Philippines would make more money. He rocks! One really "you had to be there" moment was when he explained 'Consumer Surplus' as 'I'm happy I got a discount!'

Ch7- General Chemistry

Ms. Natasha Tehran

M-F 9-1030 C109

She's cool... lots of quizzes though... about 2 per period. :p she explains things REALLY WELL, and she goes by it step by annoying step. Much better than my first chem teacher.

Fil14- Panitikan ng Pilipinas

We had to read a 30 page Ifugao epic (Aliguyon) in a day. Yipee. Now I have to read that other Ilocano epic in a day too. Yipee. As we have to read 'Ang Mahal na Passion ni JesuCristong Panginoon Natin' by Gaspar Aquino de Belen, maybe that in a day too? Yipee... I haven't even memorized my prof's name...

Deadliest Shooting in U.S. History, and Why the Middle Class is Not Deserved

"The Deadliest Shooting in U.S. History" said the headlines on MSNBC the day that Cho Seung-Hui decided that he was to shoot himself, and thirty two other people in Virginia Tech University. Right after he shot two people in the college dormitory that day, and right before he shot thirty others, he proceeded initially to mail a package to the New York headquarters of NBC news. The package was described as "a multimedia manifesto" which included a written statement, a CD of quicktime videos, and a few pictures. From the written statement alone, one could already tell that Cho was deeply disturbed. The whole package was a long rant pure of angst and hatred, but not a shred of academic logic to be found. A disturbing point though is that since the package contained premade/prerecorded material, he had planned the whole thing for a considerable amount of time. His classmates defined him as "never talking" and confessed that he had antisocial tendencies in school. According to Cho's english professor, his works were of a macabre degree, and tackled truly disturbing aspects of human depravity. She was worried that his works mirrored his true emotions, as they should, so she offered to bring him to counselling. He refused. We see then the final creciendo of his angry, depraved, self indulged world. He treated those he shot as cattle. Murder is one of the most indifferent, inhuman crimes ever commited, and the fact that he was able to shoot thirty three people only tells us that to him, humanity has lost it's importance. What caused this lack of faith in humanity? Is it american society? A severe overload of hormones? What makes a human being lose sense of what makes him human?

Note though... shouldn't the civil war be the deadliest shooting in U.S. history :) or at least something like that? Maybe Iraq should be the deadliest shooting in U.S. history. It's their fault anyway.

Side thought... I was passing by the Sta. Cruz-Quiapo-Carriedo area, and I decided to observe the people around. Realize that most Filipinos belong to this sector of society. Realize that most in this sector of society still think that Erap was pro masses because he protected the weak in old badly made Filipino action films. Realize that the only boxer these people know is Manny Pacquiao. Realize that the only sports these people know is Billiards, Basketball, and Boxing. Realize that they still stick to their hedonistic lifestyles, which shows a sense of moral depravity. The Philippines doesn't deserve it's middle class.

CSA ewans...

1. Favorite tambayan?- Tropang Tamad Table! Theatre Front during College Days 2. Usual people na kasama mo?- Tropang Tamad... and the Chorale... palagi nalang... 3. Usual food mo pag lunch?- Lunch? What lunch! 4. Lagi ka bang late nung hs?- neva! 5. San ka usually nakikita pag morning? - Tropang Tamad Table!!! Eating Chicken!!! 6. Sinong teacher ang laging kausap mo? - Hmmm... I distrust educators. 7. Fave coach mo in csa? - That pingpong guy... 8. Usual drink mo in csa? - Large 4 Seasons! 9. San makikita table ng kada nyo? - 2nd table directly front of the HS canteen entrance. 10. Usual candy/chichiria that you buy? - :D Dingdong... Pillows... Turon sa Santie's 11. Was there ever a time na umiyak ka sa cr? - Yah. 12. Did you ever enjoy your fairs? - BORING! especially when my barkada LEFT ME ALL ALONE SA FAIR!!!! 13. Best math teacher you ever had? - Si sir Ebaeguin... he was ayt... 14. Fave subj during your first yr? - Araling Panlipunan (Kung ano ano nalang) :D 15. Fave subj during your second yr?- Social Studies (Asian History) :D and English 16. Fave subj during your third yr? - Social Studies (World History) :D and English 17. Fave subj during your fourth yr? - Social Studies (Economics) :D and ENGLISH!!! 18. Did you ever run for council? - nope. 19. Nalate ka ba for flag cem?- NEVA!!! 20. Fave year & Sec mo in csa? - 3G 21. During mornings how do people see you? - they don't. 22. Was there ever a time that you left your id? - ALWAYS!!! 23. Was there ever an event in csa na bawal suot mo? - no naman... 24. Did you wear make up in school? - Ya, for our presentations and what not... 25. Usual thing that you borrow from people? - Ballpen at pad paper 26. One thing you will never forget about csa? - The Wind... I miss the field... 27. Fave events in csa? - CHEERING!!! 28. Was csa the best thing that ever happened to you? - nope. 29. BR's received? The most grave offense? - 1... for namepatch 30. In your whole stay in CSA, name all the sections and advisers you've been. - KA Ms. Atienza, PB Ms. Belza, 1A Ms. Ortiz, 2F Ms. Ruiz, 3B Ms. Calvelo, 4G Ms. De Guzman, 5L Ms. Lopez, 6G Ms. Domingo, 7G Ms. Magpantay, 1B Ms. Aguirre, 2F Ms. Sanchez, 3G Mama Myrna :D, 4J Mr. Nacion

Thoughts on a Past Year (R09)

Okay, so my english class (R09) just finished our modern adaptation of Bill Shakespeare's "A Midsummer Night's Dream." I watch waaaay too much theatre. It was a magnificent performance, and I couldn't be prouder of them all. If any of the R09 people are reading, I know I've been a loner-ish oddball warfreak pain in the ass, but believe me, I enjoyed every moment in our english classes. (forget my cuts) I may not have shown it enough, but I have grown to know each of you by name, and I truly found spending those last days with you a truly blissful experience. (again forget my cuts) I'm sorry I didn't open up, as you guys didn't open up to me either, and I guess the whole year was one big misunderstanding after another. I am actually a sweet, sensitive, heartwarming person who is quite sociable. I just didn't feel like being one at 730 in the morning. Anyway... It's mostly my fault. I'm sorry for the lit shouting fiasco, the times I let any of you guys down, and for seeming like such a tightassed snob. I truly care for you guys though... I guess I'll be here if anyone needs me (which is doubtful) but anyway... thanks for a really sublime year. I LOVED it. Thanks especially to certain people like Xans Bernie Kat Glee who actually bothered to listen to my inconsistent ramblings, and the people who became my groupmates, and to all of you guys... first year was more than just comfortable... thanks for that...

Finals Week: CRUNCH TIME!

Crunch Crunch! Finals na poh! It's hell I know, but I have to get through it. 1.8 QPI... I HAVE to reach it.

My Celebrity Look-alikes

My cool celebrity look-alike collage from MyHeritage.com. Get one for yourself.

When People You Love Leave You

My uncle just died... he was a definitive part of my childhood... He was dear to me...

Just Thinking... on 300

300 the movie... Leonidas... real... 300 Spartans... real... "Hot Gates"... real... (Battle of Thermopylae... Thermos- heat Pylos- Passageway)... coooool...

Lysistrata

Watched a play, Lysistrata (original play by Aristophanes) last friday... The play itself was about the Peloponnesian war, and how an Athenian woman came up with the idea of witholding sex from their husbands until the war stopped. Her idea spread throughout Greece, and eventually even Corinth and Sparta joined in the "no sex until no war" thing. Anyway... the play I watched though was a modern adaptation... Atenean women witholding sex from their Atenean boy friends until they stop the whole DLSU AdMU rivalry... They supposedly hid themselves inside the Manuel Pangilinan Center, and refused their boylets happy time, unles they make up with the greens... It had a VERY sexual undertone, with the characters playing it out beautifully. It was at a high point of satire, unlike most who overdo the sexuality and turn proper plays into sleaze fests. memorable lines? "Wait! Wait! That La Sallian has a knife! Wait, that's not a knife... that's an erection!" Needless to say, it was hilarious, but unsuitable for kiddies... The parents who watched it... You should have seen their faces. Pity it was only a one night show... the'res another cool one coming up though... "Dante's High School Inferno!" sounds interesting... I'm going.

Poems on a Boring Math Class

ageless

I am ageless, like the water that brings life, like the air that serves breath, like the earth that holds firm, like the fire that consumes all. I am all these things. I am eternal.

I am ageless, as my hand is cast in stone, or passed on through by ink, or by sweet songs that bards do sing, or purely by virtue of my name. I am by my hands. I am eternal.

limmerick

still now my world is full of song, but i do not sing along, for though the music fills the air, my mind is lost out there somewhere.

Poems on a Boring Math Class.

back after a 3 month sabbatical

Okay, so I haven't had time to update this thing, since as I'm sure you know, we all have problems. This should be a sufficient restart for this thing... It's an essay (in Filipino) entitled "Dapit-hapon sa Ayala." It's about the (sort of apocalyptic) fall of Ayala Center into disuse and decay.

Dapit-hapon na sa Ayala

Dapit-hapon na sa Ayala. Ang langit ngayo’y nagbabagang apoy, o danak ng dugo sa kanluran, simbolo ng walang pag asang paglaban sa lumalaking sakop ng dilim para sa munting espasyo sa kalangitan na naiwan sa liwanag. Sa silangan, ay nabubuo na rin na parang ginuguhit mula sa hamog, ang kabilugan ng buwan. Nagsisilbing tanging ilaw sa malawak at madilim na kalangitan ang buwan, dahil matagal nang panahon ang nakaraan mula noong panahong inilaw ng Ayala ang kanyang sarili. Kahit sa malabong ilaw ng gabi, di maitago ng dilim ang kinalabasan ng sentro ng komersyo ng nakalipas na siglo. Ang panahon nga naman, sino nga ba ang kayang maghimagsik laban sa kanyang kagustuhan? Ang mga higante ng semento, bakal, at salamin; mga gusaling tumatangan sa hanganan ng langit, mga simbolo ng kaunlaran, ngayo’y multo na lamang ng kanilang dating kaanyuan. Maduduming mga pader ang madadatnan ngayon. Nangingitim sila, at nilulumot sa pagdaan ng mga taon. Mga batak na lamang na tinapalan ng mga pinagtagpi-tagping yero, ang naiwan sa dating makinis nilang mga mukha. Itinago sa likod ng mga piraso ng plywood at packaging tape ang mga basag na bintana. Maraming kwartong bakante, na hindi man lang pinapansin. Iniiwan nalang sila sa kamay ng kalikasan at anino. Sa ilalim ng mga naglalakihang gusali, sa mga nakatagong gilid ng Ayala Avenue, nakalinya ang daan daang mga bahay ng mga isinantabi ng urbanidad. Ginigipit ng kanilang mga barong barong ang abenidang tinatabihan nila. Amoy na amoy ang unti unting pagbulok ng Ayala. Mula sa mga barong barong, nangagaling ang amoy ng sabong panlaba, at maruming tubig na itinapon na lamang sa daanan. Nasasama pa rito ang amoy ng sunog na mantika, at ang tae ng daga. Lumulutang sa hangin ang mga malansang amoy na talagang nakakasuka. Isama pa ang naiwang deposito ng carbon monoxide na iniwan ng modernasyon ng nakaraang siglo. Mula sa mga gusali, amoy ang basa at nabubulok na kahoy, tinta ng printer, at sunog na goma. Amoy din ang matapang na amoy ng basang basura na itinambak na lamang sa tabi ng mga gusali, at ang panghi ng mga pinagihian ng mga tao. Nawala na talaga ang kagandahan ng kalakhang iyon. Nawala na rin yata ang respeto sa pagaaring pribado. Mga bandelismo lamang ang tanging kulay ng siyudad. Sa lahat ng mga pader, may mga nakasulat, na kung anong kababalakhan. Mayroong mga pangalan ng tao, o pangalan ng isang barkada, o isang fraternity. Pwedeng malaking espasyo ang nagamit sa pagsulat, o maaaring isang maliit lamang siya na guhit. Pati sa mga rebulto ng mga nakaraang bayani hindi na rinirespeto. Si Ninoy, ay puno na ng pintura sa mukha, si Gabriella nawawalan na ng sandata, at ang rebulto ni Chiz Escudero, nawawalan na ng mukha. Isang malaking tiangge ang dating Ayala Center. Natatago sa kalaliman ng kawalan ng pagasa, kawalan ng pera, at galak sa pagkababa ng mga presyo ng bilihin ang dati niyang kagandahan, at parangal bilang isa sa pinakamaganda sa mundo. Sira sira, at walang pagkukumpuni ang kanyang magarbong arkitektura, parang perlas na itinapon na lamang sa mga baboy. Wala na ang makukulay na ilaw na dating nagpabuhay sa istruktura. Iniwan na lamang sila, mga bangkay na lamang ng dati nilang kaanyuan, mga bubog na lamang sila. Wala silang buhay, dahil walang ilaw na nilalaman. Wala na rin ang dating kasaganahan ng mga puno ng dating Ayala. Ipinutol sila dahil hadlang daw sila sa kaunlaran ng Ayala. Kaunlaran ba ang hinaharap ng Ayala, o ang unti unting pagbulok ng kung ano dati ang sentro ng Pilipinas? Tila parang isang desyerto ang naiwan sa dating berdeng berde na Ayala. Naging isang tambakan ng naisasantabi ang dating kagalanggalang na Ayala. Walang ni isang pirangot ng dating kasaganahan ang naiwan dito, upang magsilbing paalala ng panahon noong ito pa ay nasa taluktok ng kanyang pamamalagi. Masaklap isipin ang pagkaiba ng Ayala ngayon at noong isang daang taon nakalipas. Ang degredasyon ng lugar, at ang pagiba ng katauhang nabubuhay doon. Ganoon nga naman ang nangyayari sa bagay. Industrialisasyon, commersyalismo, at isang sentro ng lahat, biglang pag masyado nang maliit ang lugar, o hindi na kaya ng inprastruktura ay iiwanan nalang ng mga capitalista, at iiwan nalang sa kamay ng anarkiya.

School Spirit

Ba! La! U! E! E! A! Ga! La! E! Bughaw na Agila! Bughaw na Agila! Bughaw na Agila! ang Hari!

Humandili! Ateneo!

(e ung sa USTe?)

humandili USTe! humandili USTe! humandili USTe! humandili humandili humandili humandili!

Da! La! Sa! U! multo ng may asin!

Because It's You

Coz' you're the only one my heart beats for...

The only one my mind adores...

and all I need's to let you know...

That you're my only dream to realize...

All my life, if must, will sacrifice...

All I need's to let you know...

That I love you so.

I hope you understand that the love I feel is true...

and I hope that you can say you love me too.

Coz' you're the only one my heart beats for...

The only one my mind adores...

and all I need's to let you know...

That you're my only dream to realize...

All my life, if must, will sacrifice...

All I need's to let you know...

That I love you so.

What's Up?

Okay... currently in a horribly nostalgic mood... am currently watching all the episodes of GTO (Great Teacher Onizuka the anime.) I want to be like him somehow... is that weird... I want to be just like him... I'm like a kid with an idol... I'm so pathetic I know... I just wish I had his courage... his audacity... his blatant frankness... his sensitive insensitivity... sigh...

Daycare/Outreach

Dec 9, 2006 was the day we went on our InTACT class’ exposure trip. I must admit that my initial feelings towards the trip was of general annoyance, but fortunately, by the end of the trip, a new, more powerful feeling had taken over my being… the feeling of sheer contempt. I, with all due respect, unfortunately have to say that I found the trip rather pointless. I will have to applaud the OSCI and the InTACT coordinators for coming up with such a wonderful idea, but of course when ideas aren’t properly put into action, or if ideas are enacted in faultily… well, things like this do happen. We played with kids. That’s exactly what we did. That is ALL we did. Exposures are supposed to be about seeing the reality of an undernourished poverty, and that of a gross state of inequality. It’s about peeking into the lives of those who are hidden behind colorful facades. It’s about how these people feel, about seeing what is wrong in our society. What do we do instead? We peek into the lives of the percentage of the population where inequality is lowest… in children… By the end of the day, I was disgusted… “How did you find the activity?” “It was a fun learning experience!” Exposures shouldn’t be fun… they are supposed to be gross… disturbing…

Casino Royale

I LOVED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You Know My Name!

Thea... she said something when we met at Starbucks. "Mas magaling naman ako gumawa ng layout sayo!" was what I believe she said... hehehe... I took that as a challenge.

PRESENTING: The Casino Royale Layout by yours truly! Eat That! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I'm so proud of it...

Finally....

updating...

I went to the guidance office to get my personality test results... INTJ... 3 years ago, I took the same test, and the results were ESTJ... when I told the guidance person that my results of 3 years back were ESTJ, he said that it was a tremendous shift, beause my I, which is introvertedness was at 51... which is really high for intovertedness... what could have caused it... hmmm... I haven't recieved my results for the MMPI and TIT yet, but I'm looking forward to the results (tomorrow na! yay!) anyway... I noticed something on the LRT.... a sign in the LRT states that "the LRT is our property. Please keep it free from vandals." Go figure... I thought the Vandals have been extinct for almost 800 years... ANother weird one was "Please do not bring animals, pets, or livestock." Okay... so pets and livestock aren't animals na pala.... yesz.... Also, I discovered a new morning habit. I now listen to Magic 89.9's "Good Times with Mo Twister" from 6am to 9am everyday (or at least from 6am to 730am nyahahaha) It's sooooo funny! I SWEAR!!!!

Last (when was that) Sanny, Thea, and I met at Starbucks, and we finally got to catch up on each other :) it was fun... I MISS YOU GUYS!!!! Thea! may kasalanan ka nanaman sa mundo!

Many Kwento

Saturday... we went to watch Cue Drama Club's "The Producers" my cousins played lead roles :p anyway... It personified LSGH... at least in my opinion... half are guy, half those who aren't gay feign gayness, and the rest are boys. Except for the 2 exceptional men in every batch. I'm mean no!? HAHAHAHAHAHA Anyway... it was really good... If you could watch it (you can't. playdates are over.) I would push for your watching it... Oh! and I found this really good voiced girl who LOOKED EXACLY LIKE JEDDY!!!! OMG! I thought I was seeing things! Jeddy, kamukha mo talaga, I swear!!

Sunday... had a foot spa (oh, malinis na paa ko) It was really wow.... try the place out! It's my mom's spa... It's called Village Spa (Basement, Collonade Residences, C. Palanca St., Legaspi Village, Makati City!)

Monday... My Filipino essay was picked as an exhibition essay during Fil class... such an honor... It's about you DLSU people, and how Mc Do Taft (being a syllogism of DLSU) will forever be a part of me (awww... *cry here*)... what else... I discovered Bob Ong and I have something in common... We are both perpetually annoyed.

:)

okay, anger's gone.

Annoyance, Tolerance, and Rage

At approximately 10:00, I went to the English department at Dela Costa Hall. I asked the secretary if I could change my Lit14 (intro to poetry and drama) class to a later time, so that I could change my Ma12 (modern mathematics II) from a TH(or TTh in 'teneo terms) to the MWF 830-930 class (which is occupied by my Lit14 class.) The secretary told me to wait for the department chair, who arrives at 11:30... My classes were off at 9:30, so you can imagine my annoyance when she told me to wait a 1.5 hour period... Anyway... returned 11:30, and the dept. chair had me wait 'til 12! I still had to go to the Math dept. to withraw from my Ma12 class, but the dept. closes at 12 because of lunch break, and there's a faculty symposium at 1:30, so office won't resume until Monday! When I finally spoke to the dept. chair... she was nice enough to explain why she couldn't transfer my lit class, but I explained that if I am to go to school on Thursdays, I'd have to be here at 6:30 because the car's off the road... (My classes start at 1230 pa) she then said... "spend your extra time doing library work." PUTANG INA!!!! THAT IS THE SINGLE, MOST INSENSITIVE THING I HAVE EVER HEARD FROM A PROFESSOR! Surely, she meant well, but confining me to 6 hours of library work is the single most desperate and most insensitive thing I have ever heard of! All she has to do is ask one professor if he/she can buffer in 1 person! She doesn't want to because they'll COMPLAIN! SHE'S THE DEPARTMENT HEAD!!!!!!!! So all in... I WASTED HALF MY DAY CHASING THE ENGLISH DEPARTMENT, JUST FOR THEM TO RIDICULE ME, THEN SAY NO!!! I had a plan B... which was to drop Ma12 and take Economics instead, but because of that whole fiasco with the English dept, I decided to just f*ck it and bicker about it all semester... I'll just continue taking my math, but I'll LOATHE every minute of it, and I'll also RUE THE WHOLE ENGLISH PROGRAM OF THIS F*CKING ENGLISH PRIMA DONNA SCHOOL! YOU GUYS FEEL AS IF YOU CAN IGNORE A STUDENT BECAUSE YOU "WRITE" AND HAVE "DR." BESIDE YOUR NAMES!?!?! THEN YOU DARE CONDEMN ME TO 6 HOURS OF LIBRARY WORK!?!?!?! WHAT HAVE YOU WRITTEN FOR? THE "LOYOLA SCHOOLS REVIEW?" F*CK THAT! YOU HAVE DONE NOTHING FOR THE BETTERMENT OF PHILIPPINE SOCIETY BUT TO STICK YOUR FINGERS UP OTHER PEOPLE'S ASSES, STICK YOUR NOSES UP, AND CALL YOURSELVES "WRITERS" IF WRITERS ARE LIKE YOU GUYS.... I DEFINITELY DON'T WANT TO BE ONE.

Other Odd Thoughts

I'm assuming my audience knows what a stigmata is. If any of you readers out there (however few you are) don't know about stigmatas, then how the hell were you able to survive reading my blog? Anyway... thinking of stigmatas, I used my hand to comb through my hair, and I discovered that the "ACET disease" is back again... my hair is falling off... again... It's really no biggie, since I have the thickest locks in the world, but it also brought the thought of repetitive phenomena, without knowing the cause, nor how the phenomena begins, ends, or why it reappears at certain points in time... Isn't that the most annoying feeling in the world? uncertainty I mean... just another odd thought....

special mention kay Thea, kasi nagpapa special mention siya. Hi Thea!!!

Sked for Term 2

Subjects ko...

General Zoology

English 12

Literature 14

Filipino 12

Math 12

Introduction to Ateneo Culture and Tradition 2

General Zoology Laboratory

MWF 730-230

T 730-130

H 1200-130

"But It's Better If You Do"

Now I'm of consenting age to be forgetting you in a cabaret.Somewhere downtown where a burlesque queen may even ask my nameAs she sheds her skin on stageI'm seated and sweating to a dance song on the club's P.A.The strip joint veteran sits two awaySmirking between dignified sips of his dignified peach and lime daiquiriAnd isn't this exactly where you'd like meI'm exactly where you'd like me, you knowPraying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivetyOh, isn't this exactly where you'd like meI'm exactly where you'd like me, you knowPraying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivetyBut, but I'm afraid that IWell, I may have faked it And I wouldn't be caught dead in this placeWell, I'm afraid that IWell, that's right, well I may have faked it And I wouldn't be caught dead in this placeAnd isn't this exactly where you'd like meI'm exactly where you'd like me, you knowPraying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivetyOh, isn't this exactly where you'd like meI'm exactly where you'd like me, you knowPraying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivetyWell, I'm afraid that IWell, I may have faked it And I wouldn't be caught dead in this placeWell, I'm afraid that IWell, that's right, well I may have faked it And I wouldn't be caught dead in this placeAnd isn't this exactly where you'd like meI'm exactly where you'd like me, you knowPraying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivetyOh, isn't this exactly where you'd like meI'm exactly where you'd like me, you knowPraying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivetyPraying for love and paying in naivetyPraying for love and paying in naivety, oh

Php500 to whomsoever can find all the Pop Culture references and symbolisms (with explaination) I found in this song... both lyrics and video (video on YouTube)

Okay...

I have kwento... as most of you would know, I am probably the least "active" person in the world... I'm also very unfamilliar with things and events somehow connected to "that thing..." even simple insinuation can get me in a daze... my point... this is a kind of survey thing... I know this might sound weird, but does my "Tagged" picture make me look cute? Are you laughing right now, or do you have one of those disgusted looks on your face... anyway... 2 people... dirty old men... invited be to be their contact in "Tagged." when I checked their profiles, their friends were all what Fionna & Thea would consider "hot." It was obvious that he was collecting "hot" friends. I'm not hot. I'll "read" you the message of one of the guys... anyway... It's just really freaky... I'm not kidding about this... "wis we can be friends. i'm in china right now and be there on dec 30. hope to see u then. pls give me your cp number. thanks" Another weird event was that the second person somehow found my YM add, then he said... agrh... just read our conversation... he initially invited me to view his webcam... "mikabuts (11/5/2006 9:51:30 PM): uh? do i know you? m_safi077 (11/5/2006 9:51:53 PM): maybe i checked his webcam... mikabuts (11/5/2006 9:52:17 PM): no i dont." sabay close YM window... weird lang talaga... are you guys experiencing this on "Tagged"?

THES-QS

This is one of those bato bato sa langit sort of things...

Kat introduced me to the THES-QS Global University Rankings 2006 yesterday. As most of you would know, the results are a relief, mainly because four of our Philippine universities made it to the top 500. What surprised me though is that DLSU came 100 places higher than AdMU. I know that I begin the whole thought with a premeditated bias, but indulge me... I dug deeper as to root the cause of such a clear anomaly (plus certain people have been bugging me about it... not Kat btw) and my search led to to find certain anomalies in the rankings... As you will find on the website, the rankings are based on certain predetermined factors, which will serve as score points for each university. The percentage division of criteria is as follows:

Criteria Indicator Brief Description Weight* Research Quality Peer Review Composite score drawn from peer review (which is divided into five subject areas). 3,703 responses. 40% Citations per Faculty Score based on research performance factored against the size of the research body 20% Graduate Employability Recruiter Review Score based on responses to recruiter survey. 738 responses 10% International Outlook International Faculty Score based on proportion of international faculty 5% International Students Score based on proportion of international students 5% Teaching Quality Student Faculty Score based on student/faculty ratio 20%

Here is where it becomes problematic... I have no actual qualms with the methodology, but the application looks a bit anomalous. We take for example DLSU:

School Profile School Name De La Salle University Country Philippines Website http://www.dlsu.edu.ph/ School Description Guided by its mission to be at the forefront of Catholic education in the teaching, research and community service fields, De La Salle University has six (6) colleges: Business and Economics, Computer Studies, Education, Engineering, Liberal Arts, and Science that mold holistic individuals.Each college has specific target plans which guide them in designing programs for each specialization. Faculties are comprised of practitioners in their industries which keep them updated with the latest trends. Most are also required to pursue postgraduate studies. Aside from lectures, the skills and knowledge of the students are improved time and again through research and seminars.To strengthen comprehension of major subjects, be it in the sciences or liberal arts, lectures are offered alongside laboratory courses. This way, students can see the practical application of the theories they learn and have hands-on practices.The University also offers master's, doctorate, diploma and certificate courses. In these programs, curricula lean toward enhancing research, managerial and teaching competencies. Most courses are designed to train individuals who are professionally adept, perceptive to the country's needs and can provide expert solutions in response.Towards the end of the students' program, in both the bachelor and postgraduate level, they are required to undergo on-the-job training activities, take a comprehensive examination and/or submit a feasibility/thesis paper to consolidate knowledge gained and propose courses of action that will improve existing ways and tools in their professions. School Statistics

Faculty Stats Number of Faculty Members 750 Number of International Faculty Members 6

Student Stats Number of Students 10,000 Number of International Students 32

Undergraduate Stats Number of Undergraduates 0 Number of International Undergraduates 0

Postgraduate Stats Number of Postgraduates 0 Number of International Postgraduates 0

Course Fees (subject to change) Average Course Fees (Undergraduate Courses) 0 Average Course Fees (Postgraduate Courses) 0 Source (World University Rankings 2006)(QS & The Times Higher Education Supplement)

This is the data used by the THES-QS. The number of students is supposedly 10,000 flat. That is obviously impossible. If I remember correctly, my CLA freshman batch in DLSU contained 800+ freshmen, and CLA is only the second largest college in DLSU. If we take that into factor, the presumption that there are only 10,000 students (undergraduate AND postgraduate) is a sheer impossibility! The student teacher ratio is 1:13!? Preposterous! This already counts as 20% of the score! Another anomalous finding is that of “Graduate Employability.” This is factored from recruiter surveys, but NUMBER OF STUDENTS is taken into account! That’s another anomalous 10%! tsk tsk... We take into account another school:

School Profile School Name University of Santo Tomas Country Philippines Website http://www.ust.edu.ph/ School Description Known as the Catholic University of the Philippines,the almost four-century old University of Santo Tomas draws inspiration from the teachings and philosophy of St. Thomas Aquinas, the Angelic doctor and patron saint of Catholic schools.The Campus of the University of Santo Tomas stands out like well crafted sparkling jewelry in the city long marred by ecological ugliness,spawned by human neglect. The almost 400-year old university is the oldest in Asia and in student population, the largest Catholic University in the world located in one campus. In some ways, the campus lays bare the soul of this venerable institution. The UST campus exudes history and culture, a quest for knowledge and a love for God.Sprawled in an almost perfect square of twenty two hectares, the UST campus is boxed in by España Street on its front lawn, Governor Forbes (now Arsenio Lacson) St. on its northern flank, P.Noval on its south, and Dapitan St. on the rear. School Statistics

Faculty Stats Number of Faculty Members 524 Number of International Faculty Members 12

Student Stats Number of Students 11,764 Number of International Students 47

Undergraduate Stats Number of Undergraduates 0 Number of International Undergraduates 0

Postgraduate Stats Number of Postgraduates 0 Number of International Postgraduates 0

Course Fees (subject to change) Average Course Fees (Undergraduate Courses) 0 Average Course Fees (Postgraduate Courses) 0 Source (World University Rankings 2006)(QS & The Times Higher Education Supplement)

can you see the contradiction here? the University of Santo Tomas is supposedly the largest Catholic University in the world population wise. It is VERY doubtful they have only 12,000 students in undergraduate AND graduate programs. From what I know they have more than 20,000 students in undergrad alone... see 20,000, that’s already 166% of the supposed total population of UST! After everything I’ve seen, the verdict is: due to certain anomalies in data, this rating cannot be entirely trusted. If you’re thinking that I’m doing this because I’m bitter... yeah, but It's obvious that these anomalies exist, and they obviously cloud our judgment. This list will forever (until the next one comes out) be cited as a qualifier by students, faculty, and lumni alike. How can we ever trust it's integrity? Again... the main point of all this is a question: HOW CAN WE TRUST THE INTEGRITY OF THIS RATING

School Profile School Name Ateneo de Manila University Country Philippines Website http://www.ateneo.net/ School Description To understand the soul of the Ateneo de Manila University -- what shaped it and where it came from, where it is going and where it can take you -- it is essential to understand its motto, Lux in Domino, or "Light in the Lord."From the letter of St. Paul to the Ephesians (5:8), these words capture the spirit of a way of life which the Ateneo holds up to her sons and daughters as their best contribution to the work by which God transforms the world. To be "light in the Lord" in all fullness demands moving insistently and deliberately towards God as the center of a person's life, identifying the issues that such a centering poses, and then moving out to the world to find ever new ways of constructing the edifice, cultivating the garden, painting the masterpiece, that God is unfolding in one's life.It is a call to BE that light of the Lord in the world.The Ateneo de Manila University celebrates its 145th anniversary and 145 years of the return of Jesuit Education to the Philippines on December 10, 2004. December also begins the 5-year countdown to the Ateneo’s 150th anniversary, its sesquicentennial, in 2009.The university begins preparations for its sesquicentennial by returning to its roots: by remembering the Ateneo’s history and celebrating the things that make the school distinctly Atenean: what we cherish, what we fight for, what we believe. School Statistics

Faculty Stats Number of Faculty Members 574 Number of International Faculty Members 25

Student Stats Number of Students 10,988 Number of International Students 424

Undergraduate Stats Number of Undergraduates 7,161 Number of International Undergraduates 136

Postgraduate Stats Number of Postgraduates 3,827 Number of International Postgraduates 288

Course Fees (subject to change) Average Course Fees (Undergraduate Courses) 0 Average Course Fees (Postgraduate Courses) 0 Source (World University Rankings 2006)(QS & The Times Higher Education Supplement)

Lasallian day 1

I just remembered what I promised the Orgees last summer... although in a way one hit wonder lang kaming apat... they reminded me na no matter what I'd do, I'll still be (primarily) Lasallian. Ganun yun e. :) always look back... there's no better time to look back to... pinaka naalala ko nung nakiextra ako nung first day nung first term, tapos nakita ako ni Keisha, tiningnan ako ng mukhang ewan at biglang sinigaw: "Ano ba talaga!?" Wehehehehe da best parin kayo mga 'tol...

“Feeling Augustinians”

I remember during my senior year of high school in Colegio San Agustin- Makati, I was chosen as the class representative for the St. Augustine Impromptu Speaking Contest. I failed miserably to achieve my desired end, but I did learn something... never read your El Filibusterismo before an English speaking contest... anyway... my point... the question given to us was, “St. Augustine has many titles. He is known as the Greatest Doctor of the Church, the Holiest of the Wise, and the Wisest of the Holy, the Eagle of Hippo, a Barkada Man, and others. What other titles can you give him?” That’s not verbatim, but it contains the main gist... The answer I gave was that Saint Augustine is also the “Saint of Changes.” This is because he practically morphed from horny happy boy (he would’ve been the boy who impregnates the school bitch, and likes to drag race at night at Marcos Highway, yet loves to read and write, and is a consistent honor student...) to holy genius man. Anyway... I argued my point for five minutes, then suddenly muttered “kung datapwat...” super ouch. Again... what’s my point? Ah... It’s that recently I’ve been rethinking the little tinge of bitterness I have always felt towards my high school, and I’ve realized that it really isn’t the teachers that called me and my friends “bitches,” or “feeling magaling,” or “unorthodox and lazy” that made me feel bad, nor is it the administration which was either too conservative or too callous, nor is it the faulty political system, topped of by an absolutely powerless student government, but rather it’s the absolute lack of proper Augustinian pride instilled into us.

Augustinians are popularly known as the nicest guys on earth. From many various testaments of people from practically all universities one can find an Augustinian, we have been voted “Nice Guy School of the Century.” Is this necessarily a good thing? When I took a survey of what a few of the multitude of Augustinians I know liked most about dear old Alma Mater, most of the replies either had something to do with Glorietta, or with the generally “Happy” environment of the school, which fosters camaraderie, etcetera etcetera. When I asked what are they most proud of, being an Augustinian, most again made reference to Augustinians being nice guys. Seems as if everyone forgot the title bestowed upon us... AUGUSTINIANS. We were founded under one of the most influential Catholic orders in the world. We get our name from the great St. Augustine. We as Augustinians are all so proud of this, yet what do we truly know of him? He has a pious mother and a pagan father. His sister became an abbess. He had a son, who died in his youth, and a live in partner whom he wasn’t sure he loved. His best friend’s death left a horrible scar upon his heart. He heard a voice telling him to “take and read.” These are some of the things I have learned of our patron, and most of practically all we have been taught in relation to St. Augustine is along this line... it’s all trivia. We treat him as if he were Kris Aquino. We know ten of his sayings, which we repeat over and over again, although he has volumes full, which he couldn’t even finish editing in his lifetime. How can we even consider ourselves Augustinians... we know NOTHING of what is important to him, NOTHING of what he taught in depth, NOTHING of his wisdom, NOTHING of his philosophy, NOTHING of his love of God. His wisdom is something we should be proud of, yet CSA has never really taught us more than what can be scratched from the surface. This was my greatest disappointment. In kindergarden, Ms. Atienza told me that St. Augustine would help us talk to God. I asked for his intercession a million times, yet... I know nothing about him. I feel like such an ingrate. I also know nothing of the order he established. I know nothing of what they do, and nothing of what they have done. I know nothing about the many saints of the order, and the truly inspiring stories behind each saint. I know nothing of the spirituality wherein the order is based. The Holy Scripture as a primary place of encountering God Discovering God in Community Interiority Promotion of Justice, Unity, Harmony, Peace and Reconciliation Apostolic Service I have never known these as the foundations of my spirituality. They were taught, surely, but they were never highlighted. These foundations, and the various gifts given to us by our Augustinian forefathers and our father Augustine, in form of word, or deed. All of these serve as inspirations. They serve to ignite our flames to uphold the Augustinian values passed on by our patron, “Virtus et Scientia.”

If I could turn back time, and return to the time of the Impromptu Speaking Contest, I would change my answer. Instead of portraying Augustine as the “Saint of Changes,” I would say that he is the “Saint that Augustinians will Never Truly Know.” It’s ironic isn’t it?

Don't Tell Scotty!

I just watched Eurotrip for the first time... bought the unrated DVD kasi... :p The song playing "Scotty Doesn't Know" is from the movie btw... baka may ma shock jan e :) anyway... it's SEMBREAK!!!! That's why I'm so fruggin happy! I'm going out like 3 times this week! twice sa GB, and once sa Malate!!! WOOOH!!! It's gonna be FUN!!! woohoo! SCOTTY DOESN'T KNOW!! kudos guys!

On English

God! I visited my Tagged page today... checked out the messages and quizzes... turns out my profile says I'm female... I still haven't discovered how to correct that error... androgynous much... anyway... checked out the quizzes... WTF!!!!!! the grammage and using is horrendible! i wanting to make puke puke! i have to say that people have to practicalize there english skills to be doing better in the real world! it is horrendible! (it's an obvious pun)

About the Post Down Yonder

its the longest f*cking essay i have written... and it's in f*cking tagalog!

Sana Makita Ko Rin

Kung balikan ang aking nakaran, masasabi mong hindi ako ang tipong tao na mahilig sa mga bagay na konektado sa sining Pilipino. Kung ang kabuohan nga nang sining ay wala akong hilig, ano pa kaya ang maliit na bahagi ng sining Pilipino, ang literaturang Pilipino. Masasabi mo ngang ako’y may kiling para sa mga bagay na banyaga, at hindi eksepsyon dito ang literatura. Sa kaunting nabasa ko sa literaturang Pilipino, inakala kong kulang sa kasanayan ang literatura ng Pilipinas. Parang Pare-pareho ang istilo ng pagsulat, pare-parehong didaktiko ang nilalaman, pare-pareho lang ang lahat, at kinakailangan pa nito ng pagsasanay. Iyan minsan ang problema ng mga pribadong paaralan sa Maynila. Minsan, sa kanilang pagisip na mas binibigyang galang ang inggles, ay nakakalimutan nilang ipakita ang tunay na kgandahan ng literaturang Pilipino. Mabuti at naibuksan ang aking mga mata sa iba pang klase ng literaturang Pilipino. Natutunan ko na hindi lamang ang klasikal na mga isinulat ang mga maitatawag na literatura. Mapait ang proseso, dahil hindi ako sanay, pero may natutunan din naman. Ang kasukdulan ng aking makabagong pagaaral ng literaturang Pilipino, ay ang pagbasa ng aklat na “Hindi Man Lang Nakita” ni Mesandel Vertusio Arguelles. Naguluhan ako sa simula, dahil ito ang pinakaunang antolohiya ng mga modernong tula na aking nabasa sa Pilipino. Hindi ko alam kung papaano lapitan ang libro, o kung paano ko babasahin ang mga tula. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko ihahambing ang mga tula sa totoong buhay, o ihahambing ba sa ibang mga tula. Hindi ko pa man nasimulan ang pagbasa sa libro, ay hindi ko na ito nagustuhan. Lumabas nanaman ang pagkapraning ko. Pagkatapos ng ilang araw, ay pailang-ilang kong binuksan ang libro. Ito ang una kong nakita: “Bago ang Mundong Ito.” Marapat lang na sinimulan ni Arguelles ang kanyang antolohiya gamit ang tulang ito. Dito binibigyang pugay ang kabuohan ng sangnilikha, at ang walang kamatayan na tanong: “Paano nagsimula ang lahat?” Naguluhan ako sa tula dahil hindi ko maisipan ng todo kung ano ba talaga ang paksa nito. Maraming elemento ang ginamit sa tula na nagbibigay ng marami ring mga mensahe tungkol sa paksa. Hinahanap ng persona ang sagot sa kung saan naggaling ang “inihandog na biyaya: tula.” Dito ko nakuha ang ideya na baka iniugnay ng persona ang tula sa isipan ng sangnilikha. Baka nga ay iniugnay niya ang kagandahan ng lirika sa kagandahan ng paglikha ng diyos. Iniugnay niya ang unang linya bilang ang unang tanda ng mundo, at ang proseso ng pagisip at pagsulat ng tula, bilang isang proseso na nasaisip lamang, pero ang produkto ng pagiisip ay isang engrande, at magnipikong bagay. Gannon ang nakuha kong pananaw sa unang tula, at dumadaang ganoon din ang tema ng marami kung hindi lahat ng mga tula. Dumako naman tayo sa tulang “Linyado.” Dumadaan dito ang panahon. Ang unang instante ng paggawa sa mundo ay tapos na, at ngayon nagsisimula ang pagdaloy ng panahon. Nakikita parin natin dito sa tula na iniuugnay parin ng kamalayan ang tula sa sangnilikha. “Walang hanggan ang linyang ito, hindi matutuldukan.” Nakikita natin ang pagugnay ng mga linya ng berso sa kalakihan ng sangnilikha. Totoo naman na kahit malayo na ang narating ng mga tao, at kahit marami na tayong nadiskubre, at marami na tayong naimbentong teknolohiya para gumaan ang ating mga buhay buhay, ay hindi parin natin maabot ang kadulu-duluhan ng sanglikha. Sa ating paglalakbay sa kalawakan, masasabi nating malayo na ang ating narating, at mas malayo pa ang mararating natin, pero hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa natatapakan ng tao ang tierra sa planetang Marso, at hindi pa natin nakikita ang mga ibang malayaong mga galaxy. Maaaring sabihin na hanggat may utak ang tao, ay makakaisip tayo ng paraan na maka abot ng mas malayo patungo sa langit, pero dahil din sa entropiya (enthropy) ay malamang ay may kaduluhan din ang ating pagkabuhay sa mundong ito. Kung isipin naman natin ang paloob, imbis na palabas, ang pinaka maliit na sukat ng “Matter” ay ang “Superstrings.” Ito ay mas maliit sa mga Atoms, Particles, at Quarks, at naroon sila sa limang dimensyon ng realidad. Dahil tayo sa ngayon ay pwede lamang makaabot sa tatlong dimensyon, ay hindi natin malulubusan ang pagaaral sa mga “Superstrings” at maaaring tayo ngayo’y nasa isang “Intellectual Plateau,” kung saan hindi pa tayo pwede magkaroon ng progreso sa larangang ito. Sa ngayon, ay marami ang ating nadidiskubre, at maraming kaalaman ang pumapasok sa mundo ng tao, pero ang punto ay, tayo rin ay may hangganan. Katulad ng nangyari sa mga “Superstrings” maaaring makarating ang tao sa punto na hindi na natin maintindihan ang kasunod. May limitasyon din naman ang tao. Kahit na sinasabing walang limitasyon ang isipan, ay mayroon din ito. Lahat nang ito ang sinusuri ng kamalayan. Ang kalawakan ng sangnilikha, at ang katotohanan na tao nga lamang tayo. May mga hangganan tayo. May mga sagabal tayong hindi talaga natin maitatanggal. Ang mga susunod na linya: “Sa pahina, sa hapag ng abang, pagaabang sa pagdating ng mutya.” Ang pahina dito ay ang mundo natin, o ang kalawakan, sa mga dimensyong espasyo. Basta, parang ang isang tula, ay isinusulat sa papel, parang ang ating mga buhay, kung tadhana man o sariling kaalaman, ay nakasaad sa isang espasyo. Ang ating tula/buhay ngayon, bilang huwaran, ay nakasaad sa isang malaking papel na tinatawag na “Daigdig.” Ang pagaabang dito ay nagtutukoy sa ating paghahanap ng katotohanan. Nakasaad nga na “Nais kong tukuyin ang pinagmulan ng inihandog na biyaya: tula.” Ito ang ating natural na pagkamausisa sa mga bagay na hindi natin alam. Ang susunod na mga linya: “Kaya lumingon ako at nakita, ang manipis na abot tanaw: maaaring iyon ang unang linya, bagama’t hindi ko matiyak.” Nakikita parin ang ating kagustuhan na makita ang katotohanan. Kahit noong bago pa ang kaalaman ng tao, hinahanap na natin ang rason sa mga bagay bagay, at mga explenasyon ng mga penomena na nangyayari. Kung minsan nga, sa sobrang pagkaatat ng taong mahanap ang katotohanan ay gumagawa gawa nalang sila ng sarili nilang katotohanan. Naipapakita din nito na kahit noong simula ay tinanong na natin kung saan tayo nanggaling. Ito ang isa sa pinakaunang isipan na nakapasok sa ating isipan. Ang susunod na mga linya: “Dahil may malaking kasawian sa gitna ng likha at manlilikha.” Dito ay napasok sa aking isipan ang sinabi ng Norwegianong si Jostein Gaarder, na “Kung meron ngang diyos, ay sana’y linagyan man lang niya sana ng pangalan ang kanyang obra.” Ito ang isa pa sa pinakamatandang kaisipan sa mundo. Matapos isipin ng mga tao, “Saan tayo nanggaling?” naisip naman nila na may mas may kapangyarihan na lumikha sa atin. Ang problema naman ay may mga sagabal sa gitna ng likha at manlilikha. Mga susunod na linya: “Manipis ang abot tanaw, ngunit naroon, ang araw, bundok, ang dagat, ang parang. Naroon ang inibig ko bago ang mundong ito.” Ipinapakita naman nito na kaunti palang ang alam ng tao sa puntong ito, para ngang sinabi ni San Agustin, “ang nalalaman natin ay isang kamay na puno ng buhangin, pero ang kakailanganin pang alamin ay ang buong tabing dagat.”Isinasaad din dito na sa kaalaman natin ngayon ay hindi pa natin malalaman kung saan talaga nanggaling ang mundong ito. Pwede lang nating isipin, pero di pa kayang alamin. Isa pang tula na sumusunod sa ganitong isipan ay ang “Sa Dulo ng Mundo.” Nakikita natin sa mga simula ng libro ang mga tula tungkol sa paglikha ng mundo, at ang paglikha nito. Kung sundan natin ang isipan na ang sangnilikha ay isang tula, ang sinasabi ng nauunang mga tula ay ang diyos ang tagasulat ng tula. Nakikita naman natin dito sa may gitna ng tula na ang tao din ay gumagawa ng sarili niyang tula, na konektado din sa walang hanggang tula na kinabubuhayan niya. Medyo “metafictive” ang tula kumbaga, dahil nakikita natin na ang mga karakter sa loob ng isang malaking tula, ay gumagawa rin ng sarili nilang tula. Nakasaad sa “Sa Dulo ng Mundo”: “Nakaupo ako sa huling pangungusap Ng isang tulang gaya ng inaasahang munting bantas at sa wari ko’y nakaupo sa dulo ng mundo Sa bukana ng di masasabing naghihintay” Nakikita natin na ang persona sa tula ay nasa dulo na ng kanyang buhay, o ng kanyang kakayahan. Nakikita din natin ang bulgar na paggamit ng metapora na tula bilang sangnilikha. Nakikita ito dahil sa linyang “Nakaupo ako sa huling pangungusap.” Nakikita din natin na hinaharap niya ang limitasyon ng kaalaman ng tao, o ang “bukana ng di masasabing naghihintay.” Ito ang isa sa mga katibayan ng argumento ko kanina tungkol sa limitasyon ng tao. Ang mga susunod na linya, “Sa aking likuran, ang lahat na dumaang salita, Bigat na hindi ko makakayang buhatin kailanman,” ay nagpapahiwatig din ng limitasyon ng tao. Hindi niya kakayaning alamin ang lahat tungkol sa mundo. Nakikita din natin ang ideya na ang kaalaman ng tao, na napagtipon-tipon ng panahon, ay hindi kailanman pwedeng alamin ng isang tao. Lahat nang kaalaman ng tao mula sa unang berso hanggang sa dulo, ay hindi maaaring mailagay ng buo sa loob ng pagiisip ng isang indibidwal. E kung ang nalalaman natin hanggang sa puntong ito ay hindi natin makumpleto at maisip lahat, ano pa kaya ang kabuohan ng kaalaman. Ang sunod na mga linya ay parang nanggaling sa librong Rebelasyaon sa Bibliya. “Nilingon ko sila sa abot ng buong pagkaunawa sa anumang pagkakasala na nakapaloob sa pagbuo ng anyo at nilalaman Hindi upang igawad ang pangwakas ng husga at husgahan ang aking kamay na nabahiran ng tinta.” Dito naman nakikita ang pagkatakot para sa mga nagawang kasalanan sa mundo, at ang pagsisisi para sa mga nagawa at di nagawa (omisyon). Maaaring angkop ang anekdota na si San Pedro ay naghihintay sa mga pintuan ng langit upang tingnan kung nararapat nga ba tayong pumasok sa langit. Maaari ding angkop ang didaktikong linyang “nasa dulo ang pagsisisi.” Nakikita parin sa parteng ito ang paggamit ng metaporang pangtula, o sa pagsulat ng tula. Inisip ko sa simula ng libro na maaaring ang diyos mismo ang katauhan sa libro, pero ang linyang, “Hindi upang igawad ang pangwakas ng husga at husgahan ang aking kamay na nabahiran ng tinta” ang nagsabi saakin na imposible ito. Ang tulang ito ay medyo apokaliptik. Ang mensahe ay tungkol sa dulo ng buhay ng tao, at ang pagsisisi sa dulu-duluhan ng mundo. Ang susunod na mga linya: “Batid ko ang takda ayon sa ginagampanang papel, at doon ko ibig mahimlay bilang pagpupugay sa likhang pinagdaanan ng mundo.” Dito naman, sinasabi ng katauhan na ang kanyang “kamay na binahiran ng tinta” na nagsisimbolo na sumunod siya sa mga patakaran ayon sa kanyang “ginampanang papel.” Maaaring sabihin natin na kahit nagsisisi siya dahil sa kanyang mga nagawa at di nagawa, ang konswelo niya ay ang nagawa niya ito dahil ito ang nakasaad na gagampanan niyang papel. “Escapism” pag isipin, o parang baling moralidad. Sabi nga sa “Beerkada,” “Conswelo de Bobo.” Sa Libro, parang may pagkasunod sunod ang mga tula. Para nga ng sinabi ko, nagsisimula ito sa paano nagsimula ang tula. Nakikita ito sa mga tulang katulad ng: “Bago ang Mundong Ito,” “Linyado,” at “Sa Mga Pagkakataon.” Sa may gitna naman, binibigyan puri ang kagandahan ng tula, at patuloy na hinahangaan ang misteryo ng pagkagawa ng tula. Ang susunod ay ang pagtingin sa sarili upang maintindihan ang sarili bilang parte, o tagagawa rin ng tula. sa may dulo naman ay kung paano unti unting nakalimutan, o unti unting namatay ang tula. Sa dulo naman, ay binibigay ang mga pinal na leksyon na gustong ipahiwatig ng persona. Meron lamang isang di ko maintindihan kung bakit nasa gitna, pero dapat, kung tama ang aking pagkasunod sunod, ay nasa may dulohan. Ito ang “Sa Dulo ng Mundo.” Maaaring bagay nga ito sa may gitna, dahil ipinapakita nito ang pagkahinog ng kaisipan ng tao, upang maisip niya naman di lamang ang “saan tayo nanggaling” kundi pati na rin ang “ano ang pwedeng mangyari sa hulihan ng lahat.” Ukol naman sa mga duluduluhan ng libro, kung saan medyo pinal ang tono, titingnan natin bilang example ang “Ilang Huling Salita.” Ang simulang mga taludtod: “May mga bagay na mas mainam kung hindi sasabihin. Hayaan na subukin ang sadyang pagnanasa na maunawaan sa pagitan ng mga salita.” Nakikita dito na parang pinaglalaruan tayo ng diyos. Parang kusa pagiwan niya sa atin sa dilim sa ibang mga bagay bagay. Parang hindi niya tayo binigyan ang kapabilidad na maintindihan at malaman ang lahat, para maihusga kung gaano kalakas ang ating kagustuhang malaman ang katotohanan anong ekstento ang ating mararating para sa katotohanan? Ang susunod na mga linya: “Kung makatitiis na hindi makapagsabi, baka Bukas-makalawa ay sasaatin ang ganap na pagunawa, kung hindi sa tula, ay sa kabutihan ng tula sa santinakpan.” Naipapakita dito na pinaglalaruan nga tayo ng diyos. Tinatago niya ang kaalaman sa atin para nga “sasaatin ang ganap na pagunawa, kung hindi sa tula, ay sa kabutihan ng tula sa santinakpan.” Sabi nga uli ni Jostein Gaarder, “Para tayong mga langgam sa isang langgaman. Ang diyos ay isang batang may magnifying glass na nagoobserba sa ating mga ginagawa-gawa. Maganda naman ang layunin ng kanyang eksperimento, na baka nga mahanap natin ang pagunawa ng tula, o pagunawa sa mga tanong na nakabalot sa misteryosong mundong ito, o kung di man lang, ay maintindihan natin kung bakit ito itinago sa atin. Madami nga namang tanong sa mundo na hindi talaga mahahanapan ng sagot, kaya bakit naman di tayo bibigyan ng rason para mabuhay. Ang rason ay para maintindihan ang buhay, at ang mundo na kinagagalawan natin. Kung hindi man natin maintindihan ito ng lubos, kahit rason man lamang kung bakit hindi natin maintindihan. Isa pang nakakaaliw isipin sa tulang ito, ay ang aplikasyon nito sa Sapir-Whorf Hypothesis. Ang sinasabi ng teorya na ito, ay na ang realidad ng tao, ay base sa pagunawa niya, at paggamit ng mga konstrukto ng kanyang lengwahe. Ang maaaring example nito ay ang Pilipino at ang kanin. Sa Amerika, ang kanin, mula pagkapitas hanggang sa pagkaluto at tinatawag na rice. Ito ay dahil hindi sila masyado kumakain ng kanin. Ang kanilang “staple grains” ay wheat o mais. Sa Pilipinas naman, ang kanin ang pinakasikat na staple food, kaya tayo, imbes na isa ang binibigay na pangalan sa kanin ay maraming marami. Ang palay kung hindi pa tinatanggal ang balat. Bigas pag hindi pa luto, Kanin pag luto na, Tutong ang tawag sa sunog na kanin, Sinangag pag pinainit sa mantika na kanin. Marami pang ibang salita sa wikang Pilipino na ginagamit sa araw araw ang konektado sa kanin. Isa pang example nito ay ang salitang niebe. Kaunti lang sa mga Pilipino ang may alam na ang salitang niebe ay “snow” sa Inggles. Ito ay dahil hindi tayo nakakaranas ng niebe dito sa mga tropikal na mga bansa. Sa Alaska naman, mayroong labingapat na salita ang mga Inuit para sa niebe. Ito naman ay dahil importante ang niebe sa buhay buhay nila. Sa mga American indians naman, walang past tense ang kanilang mga salita, dahil naniniwala silang isang paulit-ulit na bilog lamang ang panahon. Naniniwala sila na paulit ulit lamang ang mga araw, kaya dapat hindi na balikan ang nakaraan, kundi ang isipin dapat lamang ay ang ginagawa ngayon. Lahat nga ng meron sila ay ngayon. Sa tulang “Isang Huling Salita,” makikita ang epekto ng Sapir-Whorf Hypothesis sa linyang “subukin ang sadyang pagnanasa na maunawaan sa pagitan ng mga salita.” o mas spesipiko, “sa pagitan ng mga salita.” Dahil ang kaisipan dito ay tinatago ng diyos ang ibang kaalaman para tingnan kung maisip natin ang mga sagot sa ating mga tanong, edi ginagawang parang regalo ang lengwahe. Ito ay dahil ang primerong mensahe ng linya ay para maintindihan natin gamit ang mga salita natin. Nagiging kasangkapan ang salita para maintindihan natin ang mundong kinagagalawan natin, at para maisip natin ang mga tanong na di natin masagot sagot. Ito ang mahika ng salita. Wala tayong magagawa kung wala ang salita. Kung wala ang salita, hindi natin maisusulat ang ating mga kaalaman, o baka nga hindi tayo makapagisip ng mga bagay na hindi lang nararamdaman ng katawan, dahil wala tayong representasyon na maaaring gamitin upang gawing memorya. Hindi rin natin maibabahagi ang ating mga naisip, dahil walang salita, walang sulat, kaya’t hindi magkakaintindihan ang mga tao. Naisabi na nga sa simula na ni isang indibidwal ang kayang alamin ang kasagutan sa lahat, dahil tayo bilang tao ay may limitasyon. Pero, pag maraming tao ang nagiisip at sumasagot ng mga tanong, baka nga ay mahanap pa natin ang sagot sa mga tanong natin. Yan ang maaaring kasukdulan ng tulang “Isang Huling Salita,” baka nga dahil sa salita, ay mahanap natin ang katotohanan. Ang Salita, siya ang susi sa lahat ng kaalaman. Kung mayroong isang katauhan sa buong antolohiyang “Hindi Man Lang Nakita,” ito marahil ang tao bilang parte ng sangnilikha. Nakikita sa buong antolohiya na ang persona ay isa na nagiisip. Ginagamit niya ang metapora ng tula upang ipakita ang kagandahan, o ang nakikita niyang kagandahan sa mundong ito. Siya rin ay parte ng tula, pero siya rin ang nagsusulat ng tula. Makikita ang temang paghahanap ng katotohanan sa marami kung hindi sa lahat ng mga tula sa antolohiya. Milyong milyong taon nang nabubuhay ang mga tao sa mundong ito. Milyong milyong taon din nilang pinagisipan ang mga retorikang di pa nga masagot hanggang sa kasalukuyang panahon. Ang katauhan ay masasabing kolektibong pananaw ng lahat ng naong nabuhay, nabubuhay, at mabubuhay. Ito ang kanilang walang hanggang paghanap, hanggang, baka nga naman, sa tulong nga ng salita, at sa palad din ng diyos, ay matanaw nila nag katotohanan. Sino nga naman ang makakapagakala na sa isang simpleng antolohiya ng labinglimang mga tula ay naglalaman ng karamiraming mga palaisipan. Masasabi nga na nilalaman nito ang buong kasaysayan ng tao, at ang kanyang walang tigil na paghanap. Hindi ko masasabing bago ang mga pagiisip na ganito. Kung masdan lang mabuti, marami nang nauna sa mga isipang ganito, at mas marami pa ang nakaisip na ang mga salita ang pundasyon ng kaalaman. Ano ang kakaiba sa librong ito? Nabasa ko ito. Nabaso ko, at nakakuha ako ng kahit kaunti ng kaalaman ng may akda. Baka balang araw ay ipamahagi ko rin ang aking kaalaman. Kung sa bagay... ako man ay parte ng persona ng antolohiya. Ako ay parte din ng tula. Ako din, ay tagasulat din ng tula. Hindi lang ito ang antolohiya ng mga tula ng may akda, ito ang antolohiya ng aking pagkatao. Ito ang antolohiya ng tao.

Yeba! Halloween!

New Layout! Halloween TS!

Someday Again...

(sips coffee) (giggles) what? nothing... (smiles) that's how it all began... huh? how did what begin? Jokelang... kala niyo itutuluy ko noh? Nah... the next literary piece will be the 10 page paper I wote for Filipino... anyway... finals are over... I haven't slept in days... literally... I tried the expresso shot at starbucks to boost me up... worked for 6 hours... but I had to pee every 3 minutes... HAHAHAHAHA... I liked the "Someday" series... it's postmodern literature...

someday is today

(4 hours later)

(phone rings) (phone rings) (phone rings) (phone rings)

(phone rings) (phone rings) (phone rings) (phone rings)

Dammit! Where the hell are they?

end.

is someday today?

Hey! Wait up! Huh? Oh... Hi... You said we'd meet today, so we will. I need the conversation. Huh? Ah.. Alright... Where to then? The Coffee shop we were at yesterday. (Stunned) Okay...

(sips coffee) There's something I want to tell you... Yeah? (Phone rings) Oh, wait... Hello? (on phone) Have you told him yet? (in whispers) No, but you're ruining it.... oh! well, HURRY IT UP! you've waited long enough! (phone out) (puts phone down) Who was it? Your friend... Oh... do you know that he's been really distant to me lately... after I told him that I liked... (rush of consciousness... short pause) COFFEE! I like coffee too (smiles) (smiles) what coffee's your favorite? I've always liked tall rich mocha blends. I like them hot. (winks) (smiles weakly, then gives a faint huh!) Do you know what kind of coffee I like? What? You.

It's just that... maybe someday.

(sips coffee) ... what was it you wanted to tell me? i don't know anymore... you were always so articulate. Words have never escaped you... even more so... they have imprisoned me. So much is to be said... but the consequences that lie with each breath, each syllable uttered... there is to much to lose. you have never worried of the consequences before... as long as you think it's right, you'll say it... i don't think this is right... it's irrational, and a pain to my being. what is this thing that is reason for your being so... different... one of life's most painful secrets... yet still one of it's greatest joys. isn't it frightening though... imagine me... going through the stages of loss without actually losing... yet... what is it you fear you'll lose? you... i've always been here, and i probably always will. you should know that. i do... then what's your cause of worry? i don't want you to be there... what?... i don't want you beside me... being there... listening to me... have i not been a good friend? tell me whats wrong! no... you've been perfect... too perfect... then... i have to go... i'll see you tomorrow then. i thought you didn't want to see me anymore? i never said that... anyway, i'll see you tomorrow. okay... see you then. (leaves) (dials a number on cellphone) i cant understand him! why? he seems no not want to be friends anymore, but doesn't tell me why... and yet he also tells me he's afraid of losing me. so you're not friends anymore? what? no... we still are... it's weird... don't ask.. why do you put up with him anyway!? coz' i love that sonovabitch... yeah. i know.

The BIG Multitopicpost

Okay! It's time to update...

AdMu Tolerance

If I remember correctly, only Fionna and I were present when Prof. Valbuena gave a make up lecture in Yuchengco. I remember because the only reason we went was bacause Fi wanted to watch her monkey's presentation... Anyway... miss Leah shared her general theory on tolerance with us, that usually agroup with higher socio-economical, or political standing... or even those who are more powerful... have a greater threshold for hurt and insult. Tolerance is the name of the game... The muslims react harshly when their religion is challenged, but Catholics laugh at jokes on Catholicism... African Americans are hurt by any little insinuative remark... White americans care about snot if you insult them... We Filipinos get outragedwhen someone talksagainst us... the Americans don't care... no it's not nationalism... it's tolerance. Anyway, although during the AdMU UST game 3, and immediately after, the Ateneans showed their jologs side by shouting the vilest cuss remarks against the tigers... it did mellow down after a day or so... when we convinced ourselves that they would be cleaning our desks someday ( MWAHAHAHAHA so elitist...) Im kidding.... no, but they did calm down... what of tolerance... according to the theory, UST should be tolerant... yet, when i rode the LRT after the game... theUST people were taunting about 5 of us Ateneans in a huddle at the end of the train.... SO MUCH FOR TOLERANCE OF THE POWERFUL. The tigers made me cry... Im hurt...

Apathy and the ipod

In a world full of wars, bloodshed, and crying... there is only one escape... a new world... which fits exactly your idea of a perfect world... it's all there... in your ipod. :) The ipod and the apathetic youth, a match made in heaven...

Four Days of Fasting

It's been four days without electricity... anyway... what has happened in those four days... It has been a while since I have updated, but let me say that today would be the perfect time to start updating...

Wednesday

My day went by uneventful, except that after my last class, I spent an hour under the freezing rain, waiting for a taxi to bring me to gateway. I needed to buy chocolates for the Ice Cream making activity we were going to have in Chemlab (Ch8). On the way to gateway, I caught wind of the news that there were no classes the next day. I bought chocolates anyway... since if ever there really were no classes... at least I'd have myself some chocolate. I wanted to watch "Twilight Dancers" while I was there, but the movie schedule just didn't fit mine... I ride the LRT2-LRT home, and affirm that there are no classes the next day... I eat my chocolate, then sleep.

Thursday

I wake up, and the wind is howling like crazy... I spent the morning panicking over the loss of electricity... I spent the afternoon cursing meralco... and eating the remainder of my chocolate...

Friday

We went to my cousin's house in Marikina (bordering on QC). The way there was COOL!!!!!! All those fallen trees... There was even this fallen bilboard which destroyed the top floor of the Honda building along EDSA... I can just imagine how much devastation there was... I wished that the stupid TV-bilboard of Makati (the one that's too bright) had been devastated by storm... but it stood as bright and annoying as ever... (FuYu BINAY!!!!) We practically spent the day bumming out there, although electricity was out as well... That evening, I had decided to stay over at their house, since I had a required movie to watch in the Ateneo the next day. My cousins taught me how to play poker... Sleeping there was a big mistake... although I got to spend a LOT of quality time with my cuzzies, and I did enjoy every waking moment of my stay there... I COULDN'T SLEEP A WINK! I slept at 430... woke up at 700... anyway... It was fun...

Saturday

Still no damn light... Ate Gayl brought me to the Ateneo that morning... It was really sad in the Ateneo... all those poor trees... there were branches everywhere!!! It was a battlefield post-battle. My english class watched "The Piano Teacher" as per our class movie critique assignment. The film was wonderful! It was an accurate psychological profile of a BDSM lover... As my professor said, although nothing vulgar was seen, the dialouge and the insinuated scenes gave shivers down... something... The acting was superb as well... There is no doubt the main actors, who played the main characters, won the best actor and actress award at the 2001 Cannes. After the movie, I walked around and saw hundreds of people in Ateneo shirts, or wearing Ateneo hats, getting ready for the game at 400 PM. Instead of watching though, I decided to go back to my cousins' house. Ate Aisa brought me to shopwise to buy undies, since mom ran out of gas, and there was no diesel in any of the gas stations near the house. That meant I had to stay another day in my cousins' house... also since the LRT wasn't working. That evening... I discovered that the LRT was working... so I decided to go home... my uncle forced my twin cousins to bring me home... I told them to drop me off at Gateway instead, so they could just continue on to Eastwood. It was embarassing to have them bring me home yet, since they had some of their LSGH friends with them in the car... It was then I found out what boy's nights out are like... I have never been in a car with only teenage boys inside, so this was a first... It was fun... and boisterous... full of rap... RnB... classical?! My cousins and their friends have a refined taste... anyway... I got home safely... and... THERE WAS STILL NO ELECTRICITY!!!! DAMN MERALCO!!!!!

Sunday

nothing much... skipped mass... got electricity back... am happy... :p kudos guys...